Sunday, October 28, 2012


I am going through, the same emotional mess again and again. I'm learning to embrace my pain. I don't understand what else I have to learn from it. Why I have to meet the same type of people over and over again. And fall for them...
There is a small change however.
I cannot cry anymore. And when the pain is comming I think of HER. And Goddess herself is soothing my broken heart. With HER by my side I can win this time.
I am gonna take a leap of faith, and jump into the future with no expectations.
Whatever awaits me there I'll take it. I cannot say, I am not afraid.

I hope at the end will be just a happiness.

Blessed Be )O(

Saturday, October 27, 2012

I was thinking long and hard last night, after a lovely talk I've had with my Friend. In our lifetime we are meeting so many people. Sometimes they are staying longer, sometimes they are just passing by. And when they are gone we are thinking 'what if?', or maybe we should do more, or be different. And it hits me. Maybe I have lost opportunity for my lifetime happiness, because I was to scared or too selfish? Maybe, but I am not going to make the same mistake twice. So from now on, if I feel something I will manifest my feelings. Because tomorrow maybe too late. Maybe my heart will change, or you will be gone from my life forever? I don't want to wait for mirracles anymore. I want to create them. Or die trying. With no expectations, whatever I'll do, I'll do it because I want to. We have eachother for such a short time of our life. Lets make the best of it!

And one more thing my Friend. We all may come from one source. But we are not one. Not anymore.  < 3
 I love you with all my heart. And I am not afraid anymore.

(I lied - I am afraid...)

Saturday, October 06, 2012

Goddess inside

She whispers inside of my head: 'You know that some things just must have to happen. And not you or anybody can stop it. There is no escape. So be patient my love. Be patient. Learn and evolve, and when the times will come you will be ready to get everything.'
And I don't know who is she. It feels like me, but sometimes I think it must be Her, 'cause she is stronger then me. Smarter and more confident. It is confusing...but I remember what friend told me once: Do not reconsider it. Embrace it. It may be the only way She can get into you.
I listen.
I know few things for certain now.
I can switch on, a special kind of look into your eyes. (Just need to practice it a bit)
If I am not making any first moves I am invisible. But If I will let you see me, your life never be the same.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Dreams, dreams, dreams...

I had a dream last night. The egg I've found in the forest was dead. I decided to take it back and bury it. I was next to Jim's car and I opened the door. I placed the egg on the back seat, when I realised, that the egg looks bigger and appears to be cracked. I have placed the egg on the palm of my hand and I've looked closer. And then the egg just cracked open and there was a little yellow bird with burgundy coloured legs, very much alive!